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Trekking through life: Faith, family, friends and a whole lot of coffee!

Joy comes in the morning September 11, 2017

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While this is not going to hold true for a great many as daylight breaks for those of us who were in the path of Hurricane Irma, I am counting my blessings.

Somewhere around 10 pm the strong winds began accompanied by rain who came well ahead of the winds.  The wind.  I have never in my life heard such a sound.  Accompanied by incessant tornado warnings and reports of local touchdowns, I could feel my heart racing.  “Jesus, I trust in you”, over and over and over.  Living St. Paul’s exhortation to “pray without ceasing” took on a whole new life.  Hubby, the kids and the animals slept.  Somewhere around 2 a.m. I joined them for a few hours.

Around 5, I tried to let the dog out to do his business but as we stood in the backyard doing a quick survey, the wind was too freaky and we both hightailed it back inside.  I see our fence is intact although our neighbor’s fence is leaning.  We have minimal water in the backyard (so far).

I am grateful.  For my family who is safe.  That I followed my instinct to get our son home yesterday, because he’d be stuck now.  A house that is still standing.  Power.  Coffee pre-made and heated up this morning.

Continued prayers as the storm heads toward my family and friends in North Florida and Georgia.

For now, I am charging my phone.  Drinking my coffee.  Praying some more and waiting for the next round of updates from friends and family.

Peace.

 

Hurricane Irma or longest week EVER September 9, 2017

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Last weekend, on Saturday, the Hubs and I decided it would be a good idea to go ahead and get the second propane tank filled.  Just in case.  Every store was SOLD OUT.  I was like, what in the heck……usually the chaos starts a few days before the hurricane.  Not a week.  But then we don’t generally have the fresh hell of Harvey in our immediate thoughts.  Fortunately, being early enough in the week, the stores were constantly replenishing.

Tuesday.   I sprinkle the entire house with holy water.  My kids roll their eyes.  I give zero Fs.  I boiled eggs.  Made protein balls.  Got ice, water and non perishables.   I get my car serviced, just in case.  And the week went on, work, school and peppered with constant news feeds and updates, the SOLE subject of any and all conversations at work, planning and the question to board or not to board, to evacuate the kids and Hubby or not.

Wednesday I set up the Zello app with friends and it is the biggest of the busts.  Supposedly walkie talkie app for your phone to stay in touch.  However, setting it up was a joke and since it uses wifi, it won’t be much help when power goes out.  And it sucks down the battery even while not in use.  File under useless.  The delete button is a beautiful thing.

At the end of the week we decided to board up and…..no plywood.  well, there was plywood coming, but basically you have to sit and wait for the truck.  Hubby improvised and bought pallets and constructed window covering.  While on the 3rd window, our oldest son got a lead on plywood and made the trip with a friend to grab it up.  And of course, refill gas, which is now becoming hit and miss throughout town.

Thursday we make the decision for Hubby and kids to evac (since I am hospital based, there is a large possibility of having to go in to the hospital either during or after the storm and our oldest will likely be needed at work after the storm as well).  Hubby works remote and we settle on Birmingham, since Atlanta is currently in the “cone of uncertainty” (gotta love that apt name) and Tallahassee is on the edge.

Friday the storm turns west and now with traffic on I95 just insanely busy with evacuees (I see it daily on my way to work as well as people resting in our parking lot after driving all night), and gas truly becoming harder and  harder to obtain, we revisit the evac plan and decide for them to stay.  As the storm continues to turn west, this is a decision I am so grateful for as they would have evacuated to the directly into the path.  Tallahassee is now firmly in the cone, as is Birmingham.

Saturday 1/2 of our neighborhood loses electricity.  Not us.  Our next door neighbors come over and finish their laundry and bake a banana bread.  I made a second and last run for post-hurricane stuff:  instant coffee, baby wipes, bananas, grapes, oreos, candy corn and La Croix coconut water, because priorities.  Finish laundry.  Make chocolate chip cookies.  Help Hubby hold a few boards as he finishes boarding up my mom’s house as best he can.  Walk the dog.  Pace a lot. Make chicken soup in the crockpot.  Allow 2 of 4 kids one last sleepover for the week.  Begin to check in on my west coast and Panhandle friends because it’s heading right for them.  Some are making last minute evac plans, some are hunkering down, some are undecided.  The entire state is in fret.

Sunday.  I make pumpkin muffins and Three bean bake for dinner.  Walk the dog.   Sprinkle the house with more holy water because you can’t have enough holy water, this is a fact.   I blog.  I text.   I do my bills.  Now I’ll do one more round of baking and then practice my embroidery?  The waiting is the hardest part.  Maddening.  But all my chickens are now home and we are as ready as we can be.  At this point, we will absorb the “softest hit”, but of course, hurricanes are subject to change.

I’ll also continue praying, because it ain’t over ’til it’s over….thanks for that Hurricane Charley 2004 Image result for hurricane charley path mapAnd Jose is just sitting out there making a plan and deciding what he’ll do.  We’ll just focus on one storm at time, though…..

For the Keys and Miami who are getting hit now and for all who are in the path as Irma heads north.  For those still reeling from Harvey.  For those who will travel back home in a few days to take stock.  Lord, have mercy.

Beautiful sunrise on Friday morning.

All around town….

and at home……………..

nervous energy = dinner in advance

and cookies…

on the bright side, someone has a bird’s eye view of the neighborhood and takes it very seriously

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Be safe, my Florida friends and fam.  And everyone…………..pray!  XO

 

Friday Roundup August 10, 2017

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It’s been a minute, but since I only seem to blog when I have a few days off, I figured I’d clock in with Kelly and the gang for some quick takes.  So let’s go!

  1. I’m adding some new podcasts to the mix and one of them is Jen Hatmaker’s .  Currently the podcast is a series on Girlfriends and this must just be a hot spot in my life right now because it is a recurrent theme on many levels.  I love Jen, she is hilarious and real and we have a similar season of life right now so I GET her and apparently she gets me.  And after listening, I realized my girlfriend glass is DRY, DRY, DRY.  One of my sisterhood circles has us all in so many directions of life with hubbies, no hubbies, kids,  empty nests, summer, perpetual summer, vacations, no vacations, work, self-employed, retired, it is dang near impossible to all get together.  But the podcast reminded me…..friends are important.  VASTLY important.  And friendships take effort and nurturing like any other relationship.   So we got together one night on a whim and set up a monthly get together.  The sisterhood is BACK!!  So, thanks Jen!!  We needed that push!
  2. Along the theme of girlfriends….Edel ’17 was last weekend in Austin.  Sadly, I missed it, but since I stalked everyone’s instagram and twitter feeds I virtually enjoyed it.  When I first realized this just wasn’t the summer for Edel, I was disappointed and figured if I was meant to go, it would happen.  As it worked out, I was not meant to go, BUT I was at total peace with it and I was right where I needed to be.  So perhaps Edel ’18?  We shall see, but I was so glad to see some of my internet and IRL blog friends together again and being fed in the spiritual and girlfriend realms.  Such awesomeness!!  #insteadofedel I met with two different girlfriends during the weekend for spectacular walks and catch up time and another girlfriend to visit and inherit a phone for our girl, so that was WIN WIN in the girlfriend department for this mama!!
  3. Another podcast, Do something beautiful by Leah Darrowis on my playlist and today was a joy with her interview with Mark Hart.  So fun and just interesting to hear the ways God works in people’s lives and the evolution of faith and how different that looks for everyone.   Top it off with a great ending and a few encouraging thoughts that I took all the way to Adoration with me on parenting:  if you are parenting and  you’re praying, you’re not failing……good reminder when it seems like it is a total poop emoji show…..just keep praying!  God doesn’t expect perfection, He expects effort.  And lastly, remember that the Graces in the sacraments are endless; there is no problem or struggle bigger than God.  For the entire podcast go HERE.
  4. As summer comes to a close here, we roll into the school year with ALL high schoolers!!!  A senior, sophomore and freshman.  It hits me in waves and really weird waves.  For instance, the end of band camp performance is tonight; it is hot, muggy, sun in your eyes and pretty quick, followed by a pot luck dinner for 500…so we pretty much bring food and eat at home…..because lines for days.  But then I remember, it’s the LAST band performance of band camp because we have a SENIOR.  I imagine the whole year will be like that, trying to capture all the “lasts”, so we will be there sweating our butts off in the super non-comfy stands with our sunglasses on and savoring it.  Ah time, you are a bittersweet one.
  5. With the advent of school starting, we also have the beginning of faith formation, volunteering, schedule juggling and trying to balance it all.  I’m feeling pretty certain this will be the year of  a guilt-free “NO”–I just have to pray what I’m saying “NO” to, but after some time in Adoration I am feeling some serious peace about that;  it’s OK to say NO for your sanity so that you can bless your family rather than YES and be stressed out and resenting every volunteer gig.  It’s hard, but I’ve been here before and I know the fruits that come from a season of NO and I’m ready for the harvest.
  6. The first day of school also means mom and dad took a vacation day.  To do whatever.  they.  want.  All day.  So we are adulting today with lab work (both), mammogram (me), lunch with step dad (me), annual check up (kiddo), taxi duty (me), work (hubby), and band performance (both) so that we can UN-adult all day Monday.  At least while the kids are at school.  So.  Boom.
  7. Lastly, a little serious as we enter the school year and all that goes with it.  Two nights ago we had a 9 year old boy go missing in our city.  The story goes that he routinely rides his bike all day to hang out with friends and comes home in the evening.  No cell phone.  Parents don’t know the friends.  (this is all from the paper, so take it with a grain of salt).  The other night, he didn’t show up at the usual time.  3 hours of helicopters, foot and car patrol and city wide search and he was located safe, sound and oblivious to the commotion of the past several  hours at the skate park a mile away.  You can imagine the judgement going on in the parenthood realm.  The boy’s grandfather remarked that he was so happy to see him that he was hugging him and not letting him out of his arms all night.  Miraculously I was able to stay out of the debates on the parenting or lack of that must be going on and I’ll tell you why.  Perhaps we don’t know the whole story.  Perhaps the paper sensationalizes the details.  In reality, we just don’t know.  And so I thought that maybe he lives with grandparents ( a growing trend) and that is a generation that grew up with “be home by dark” and they allow it—ah the glorious good ‘ole days.  Quite frankly, I think it’s great.  Maybe you don’t.  I am certain it opened a new discussion on communication in that family unit and the importance of staying in touch.  Maybe it didn’t.  One thing I know is….. we don’t know.  However, we are often quick to judge aren’t we?  So rather than get dragged into a pointless discussion on judgy McJudgersons (that’s me judging them), I gave a huge prayer of Thanksgving for the boy being found safe and a grandpa who was dang happy to have him home.  And I will take that into the school year and all the microcosms of various parenting, social circles and kid activities.  We might presume to know what’s going on with kids and families, but really we never know.  Unless we make the effort to know, to love our neighbors, embrace our differences and be open to other opinions.  You’d be surprised at what we learn about each other when we take the time.  Happy weekend to all!!

    Snapchat.  Always great makeup and painfree piercings!!

 

The rest of the story July 23, 2017

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If you know me in real life (IRL) then you know that I have long held Jeremiah 29:11 as MY verse.  The verse of our family.  The promise that is the glue that held us all together, that continues to hold us together.  It IS my email address.  It is in my signature on my personal and work email (gotta love a faith based corporation).  It is a lovely framed print on our kitchen wall.  It is the verse that people tell me reminds them of me when they hear and the verse that strangers comment on and have thanked me for.  I live it.  I breathe it.  I KNOW THE PLANS I HAVE FOR YOU.

He doesn’t always share those plans with me when I’l like him to.  There are some plans I am still waiting on to fall in place.  And that’s ok.  The point is, I am well familiar with verse 11.  This week as I went through the Consider the Lilies study with the Take up and Read group, this verse was the focus……..along with verse 12-14.  And it took my breath away.  As if God himself basically asked me,  “Do you see?”.  Affirming the YES, He is with me.  Every step.

When I seek Him, He is there.  When I don’t, He is waiting on me.  Waiting for me to seek, knock and ask so that He can allow me to find Him, let me in and answer me.  Time and again, He is faithful.

When I put my trust in Him, He blesses me abudantly.  Restoring what has been destroyed to even better than it was that first go around.  I’ve seen this in so many facets of my life:  relationships, health, peace, guidance, wisdom and even some material comforts.  He is good beyond my wildest dreams.

This season of life has me turned a little upside down.  Our kids are getting older and I find myself in levels of anxiety that I have never experienced in their childhood.  Have we prepared them enough for life?  Have we given them a strong enough foundation?  Will they make the right choices?  The list goes on and if I give into the doubt it is a long climb out.

This weekend we attended the funeral Mass for a CRHP sister who suffered from a form of leukemia.  We were blessed as a team to have had her in our lives and especially blessed as we gathered one last time together a few weeks ago in her home to pray together and begin the Our Lady, Undoer of Knots novena.  Yesterday, Vera reminded me that our job is to live our best life and to look forward to the eternal life we have ahead.  Wrapping myself sideways about the “what-ifs” in life are non-productive and life-stealing.  God has it under control.  So, I am going to work on giving it all back to him to sort out.  Our Lady will untie those knots on my behalf and my job is to continue to Seek, knock, ask and trust that His plans for me are indeed far better than I can imagine.

Blessings!

 

Gardening  June 21, 2017

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These flowers have been a balm to my soul this week.  A Mother’s Day/Birthday present two years ago, these gorgeous lilies were transplanted into the backyard bed in hopes of propagation and long life.  Sadly, they withered up and all but died away.  I never dug them up because I’m really not a gardener…if it doesn’t thrive with minimal to no care on my part it should just move on elsewhere.

Fast forward to this Monday while walking the yard with the pup, lo and behold this beauty stood loud and proud where prior there was nothing.  NO. THING.  I mean one dead a** leaf pile and now this.  Just WOW!

After an epically crappy parenting weekend this was quite the incredible gift.  Trust me.

And then we have these lovelies that I am terrified to split and separate for fear they will all die a horrid death, and yet if I do prune them and thin them out it is quite likely they will be even more spectacular each year.

Kind of like parenting.  Sow the seed.  Nurture.  Give them room to grow and even when you have to step in and walk them through the hard and horrible stuff of live and learn….even that can grow tremendous beauty and healing.  (fortunately, I am a slightly better parent than gardener)

Walking a lake loop during another child’s counseling appointment and the glory of God is just all around.  So much to be grateful for.

Even these lovelies are pruned heavily for a period of time and their blooms are so incredibly lovely to stand in the shade of.

John 15:2  Every branch in Me that does not bear fruit, He takes away; and every branch that bears fruit, He prunes it so that it may bear more fruit.

And so even though we weather the storms from time to time, I have every faith and hope that the seeds that we planted will bear abundant fruit in due time.  Parenting is not for the weak, my friends.    Thanks be to God for His endless mercy and grace to fuel us along the way……and for the interecession of Our Blessed Mother as she unties these knots to pave the way to glory.    Often the most amazing gifts are revealed after the strongest of storms.  Thanks be to God.

 

Where mercy lives June 3, 2017

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It is a wonderful season right now of graduations, vacations and the promise and hope of a lazy summer ahead before these babies begin the next season of life come fall.

I was commenting on one of my friend’s graduation posts the other day as to how surreal it was that her son was graduating and her response was of pride but also of trepidation and prayers that he would make the right choices at this crossroad in his life.  The reality hit me that we ALL have those same concerns for our children.

How often we savor the sweet and tender moments and share the pride and joy of our children’s accomplishments with all the world yet when our children struggle it is generally a burden we often bear alone and yet it is a natural part of growing up and preparing to leave the nest.  Sometimes that means less than ideal choices on our kid’s part.  Maybe we made some of the same or similar choices at their age.  The question is how do we RESPOND to the choices?  They are young adults, they are often of legal age or close to it and so that transition of itself is not only on them but us as parents.  In this season of life we have yet to cross over to that “friend” bridge with our kids but we are committed to the construction period, an arduous time for sure but when we exercise mercy and grace the tradeoff is priceless; this is, of course, far easier said (and written) than done.

My memory may be incredibly spotty and unreliable but this I CLEARLY recall:  the age between 17-21 was a tough road of “finding myself” and learning by the loving and ever-patient example of my mom and more often, by life’s unforgiving natural consequence.  It is a time that we no longer dictate every activity and problem solve every speed bump, nor should we, for if we do we stunt the ability for these babies to sprout their own wings and manage life on their own.  The whole “failure to launch”—it’s a thing and we parents are fully to blame.  I am eternally grateful for my own mother and her ability to calmly (on the outside anyway) let me navigate that time but knowing she was ALWAYS present for a soft landing, advice and guidance from her own life experiences.

The truth is good kids can make bad choices and it often has nothing to do with parenting.  Now don’t stone me, I realize that parenting DOES affect how our children turn out, but you don’t have to look far to see kids from “good families” making crappy choices and kids from tough situations rising above and wildly succeeding.  The point is they will all come to this transition and it is our responsibility and gift to help them along mercifully.  gracefully.  lovingly.

I was reminded recently that sometimes these kids make fatal choices when a young man and his friends were riding their motorcycles at ridiculously unsafe speeds, being reckless and lost his life the night before prom.  The devastation reached far in this community as he was well-liked but one parent (a former police officer–who clearly saw much of this in his career), responded callously with a “what do you expect?” attitude.  The comment and the attitude struck me as thinking perhaps his son would never do that, but in reality ALL of our children are one choice away from any number of consequences.  And we must respond IN LOVE.  IN MERCY.  WITH GRACE.

Our kids will make bad choices.  Just like we did.  They are human.  Just like we are.

Obviously a lifelong history of good communication and fairness goes a long way in lessening the frequency of “bad” choices, but we can start that relationship over every day by just making the choice as a parent to respond with grace, mercy and love.  For it is in these times of transition it is most needed.

The fact that we do not have to forge this period on our own is a tremendous gift.  St. Monica, St. Augustine, Mary, and a host of saints have all shared in this suffering beauty of parenthood in every season and they are there to cheer us on.  Chances are you have real-life friends and family there to do the same.

So,  may the force be with you (and me) during this transitional period.  May we all remember that: 1) free will and bad choices often go hand in hand 2) it doesn’t mean you’re a bad parent 3) your mom was right–you’ll catch more flies with honey and if you can’t say anything nice, don’t say anything at all  4) pray without ceasing

Peace.

 

May! Mamas and birthday celebration! May 14, 2017

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Raise your hand if May is a busy month!

Throw in a few birthdays and Mother’s day and every May is SUPER MAY around here!! (followed by June’s plethora of birthdays, anniversary and Father’s day–it’s practically a month of cake!)

I know this day isn’t easy for everyone for a variety of reasons and I offered those intentions up during Mass this a.m.  Right after crying through our priest singing “Hail Mary, Gentle Woman”.   

I’ve got zero complaints and 1 trillion blessings.  It’s been a fabulous weekend all around just being with my people, getting a few things done and having some down time—allegedly snoring during my nap today.  (ok, I even woke myself up a time or two…whatever.  worth it!)

Got my first paddle board of the season in on Saturday before the rain with the hubs, snuggled the SWEETEST puppy and spent some quality time with my kiddos and hubs.  We even tried to recreate a favorite Mother’s Day pic of mine (click HERE for the original) and it erupted into a li’l fit….that’s parenthood….not perfect.  and it is all good.

Wishing you a lovely week ahead!

 

 
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